First of all I apologize for being weird and vague out here in blog land lately. Some major things have been going down and some things I'm still not going to share... but a big one is that we thought Mr might be deploying again...like real soon...like reallllly soon. Yeah I know. I lost it. I lost it all.

He dropped the bomb (no pun intended) on me in a restaurant, which I was pissed about and may have appreciated somewhat. I was shocked. I thought he was joking. We have a messed up sense of humor, so I seriously thought he was joking. He hasn't even been back 5 months yet. When I found out it, he hadn't even been home 4 months.

We needed to prepare that he might be gone again for 6-7 months. He was a short list, a very short list, of people that were going to get volun-told to go.

I thought I was going to be physically ill. I just got him back. We have trips planned. Heck he's going to be TDY back and forth for the next 4+ months anyway...but still at least he wouldn't be at war.

So I prayed and I prayed. I cried and got pissed off. And then I may have got drunk and pissed off again. Hey just being truthful here.

BUT!!!! Thankfully it doesn't look like its going to be happening. Praise the Lord!

So that is a BIG reason why I have been weird lately so I apologize.

But even though it looks like my love doesn't have to go and I am so thankful for that, I am still praying for those that do.

Godspeed....